FailureWithinMe

Please, Call Me Fay Lyn W.

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Thursday Rushing to the hospital. Suddenly everything turns to black. Wake up to my father frantically shaking me awake. I passed out from all the pain. Wouldn't it have been more interesting if I had died? Friday Kidney infection. Runs in the family. Stay in the hospital for a few days. No one even calls. Saturday Phone won't stop ringing. Can't sleep, not hungry. No food means no nutrients. Getting worse. Wish I had some company. Sunday EKG flatlines. Nurses rush in within 10 minutes. Record time since I've been there. Disappointed faces when it is realized that the monitor just slipped. Fuckers woke me up. They woul

The Call by FailureWithinMe, literature

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The Call

Middle of the night, but I see your online. I hear you're nearby, I wanna swing over. I'm told maybe, so I get ready and pretty. But then I'm just playing dress-up alone. Why can't you just tell me how you feel? Why can't you just be honest and tell me!? Why are you ignoring me!!! "Let love find you..." Well, it seems he got lost while looking for the right apartment number!! Now I'm just tired and lonely... Who would want someone who just yells at them... You're right, I am disappointed in you. Disappointed that you refuse to accept how much I love you.

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Dearest Carni 4

Dearest Scott, My heart aches as well as my head. I can't seem to get you out of my mind. I want you there, but I want you here too. I don't know what to do. Every waking and sleeping moment, it's you who is on my mind. I've taken up independent studies, to try and occupy my time, but everything reminds me of you... Is this what going mad feels like? I feel so alone in my own feelings, I talk to no one about you, in fear that if someone says the wrong things, you'll be taken even further away from me. I can't even focus on writing an actual poem or explain my feeling artistically because my words get so jumbled. I feel like

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Dearest Scott, I find it harder to write to you now, as my life as become a series of starts and stops. My sister, Nikki, is very sick. She is under going surgery sometime this week to repair her sinuses, a procedure which worries me to no end and frightens me more as I have yet to speak to my sister... And due to school, I cannot be there to comfort her either. Worse yet, I went to the mall with some friends the other day and tried on prom dresses for the fun of it. It saddened me to think I'll never wear one. I still have no job. I'd die for one right about now. I'm putting more apps in this week, but I doubt anything will happen. My othe

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Dearest Carni 2

Dearest Scott, I feel as if you're my phantom. I dream about you now, such peaceful dreams... I've recently created a question in my mind, a question I think that no one but you could answer. It's a simple question with a complex answer, but I've decided that anyone who gets it right, is somebody who I want to spend all my time with. So I hope you get the answer... Maybe if you come back, I'll ask it. You're haunting me, Scott. As hard as it may be, I'm okay with it. For every princess, there is a man who has to fight his own battles before he is brave enough to save her from her tower. I need that, to get out of here, to be rescued. My wor

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Dearest Carni

Dearest Scott, I feel silly writing a letter to you, as I don't know where you are. This letter will never be mailed. I feel sillier yet, as I am writing this while sitting in class listening to a Breaking Benjamin CD. Not to mention the lined paper. I feel so very silly. It gets worse. I've found myself missing you. Wanting and craving. Whenever I smile, I feel shameful that you're not here to smile too. I know it's pathetic, seeing as how you're probably having the time of you're life right now. You wanted to get away, you wanted to leave us all behind. Yet I feel as if you died. You had told me once that when you died, no one would be ab

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Day In My Life

Lonely. Wanting Calling Aching Arching Weight Pressure Kisses Wet Force Pain Pleasure Soft Mess Sweat Ecstasy.... Over End Shame Thought Shame Scent Shame Hurt Shame Dirty Shame Lies Shame Rejection Shame Shame Shame Shame Shame Shame Shame Shame Shame Shame Shame Shame Shame Shame Shame. Water Hot Burn Away Soap Clean Face Back Hair Legs... Cold Bed Musky Damp Stand Out Sit Couch Think Look Window Sunshine Summer Past History Missing Piece Love Person Unavailable Lonely.....

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Dec 9
United States
Deviant for 16 years
www.myspace.com/failurewithinmeart
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Hi! Name's Fay Lyn W., or just Fay. I'm a youngster starting out in cosplay and when I'm not talking to the love of my life or hanging out with friends, I'm here messing about! I love all art forms, music the most of all! Oh, and I love blankets.

Current Residence: Michigan, USA
deviantWEAR sizing preference: Meduim to a Large
Favourite genre of music: Emo, Rock, Anime, Techno, J-Rock, R&B
Favourite style of art: All of them.
Operating System: Dell Inspiron 6000
MP3 player of choice: I don't know.. I own a PSP
Wallpaper of choice: Anything Group Shot
Favourite cartoon character: Undecided, Harley Quinn is cool
Personal Quote: Well That Doesn't Help Me At All!!!

Favourite Visual Artist

I haven't really thought about that...

Favourite Movies

Stay Alive, Rent, FMA:COS, The Chipmunks

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Lemon Demon, The Offspring, L'Arc en C'eil, Muse, All Time Low, Tokio Hotel, The Darkness

Favourite Writers

e.e. Cummings, Patrica McCormick, Neil Gaimen

Favourite Games

Legend of Zelda, KOF, Champions of Norwrath, Rayman Raving Rabbits, KH I&II

Favourite Gaming Platform

Playstation or Nintendo, love Computers

Tools of the Trade

my mind, pencil, camera, clothes

Other Interests

Anime, AMV, Music, Love

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FailureWithinMe

Apr 1, 2011

MY NEW ACCOUNT PLEASE HELP ME SWITCH OVER

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My new account is ~HollyRaeD (https://www.deviantart.com/hollyraed) and it's going to be all my cosplays, photos, and con reports. THIS ACCOUNT WILL BE DELETED IN A WEEK GUYS!!! Please help me switch over by watching my new account instead of this one!!!

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FailureWithinMe

Mar 31, 2011

New Account

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Hey guys, I'm thinking of making new account, one I'd base mainly on cosplay and photo work and the like.. Something I would keep up to date on keep busy with photos and possibly a subscription. I feel this account is too immature and old for me to care about anymore... What do you guys think? Time for spring cleaning?

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FailureWithinMe

Sep 21, 2010

Abandonment

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Alrighties... I HAVE BEEN GONE FAR TOO LONG! And now I'm back! I have been dealing with a lot of shit, involving drama, my health, my living status... YET I HAVE NEVER ONCE STOPPED COSPLAYING!!! I have actually made quiet a few cosplays while I've been off dA. Some of which including Kafei from Majora's Mask, Scout's Mom from Team Fortress 2, Cait Sith Lolita maid version from FF7, and of course, working intensely on my Steampunk. One of many reasons I haven't posted anything on here, is because I have such shitty pictures for it. I really need to talk to someone about getting pictures done for me so that I feel more confident in my work